This wouldn’t happen.

When I decided to start this blog, it wasn’t going to be all about my family. Actually, it was going to be a place for me to share my thoughts and feelings on different things that I just don’t understand. Things that if we lived in a “perfect world” wouldn’t happen. I realize that it didn’t take me long to lose sight of what I really wanted this blog to be about. This morning I was reminded.

Just like you, I read blogs from other people. Complete strangers to be exact. But over the past year of reading about their daily trials and tribulations, you begin to feel a conection of sorts. It is like you are looking in through a window into a glimpse of a very small part of their life. Some you can relate to, others you can’t. Some make you laugh while others make you think and ask yourself “what would I do?”

Confessions of a CF Husband. I can’t even start to tell you their story, it is one that you need to read for yourself. Nate’s wife Tricia has CF. They tried for a long time to get pregnant and had given up because her health was failing and she needed to be put on the list for a lung transplant. The day before they were to pack up and leave for the hospital to begin the waiting process, she found out she was pregnant. Risking it all, they decided to keep the baby.
Long story, Gwenyth Rose was born prematurely…Tricia struggled for life. Shortly after the birth she was put back on the waiting list and on Nate’s birthday, they received the call that she would be getting her new lungs! It went well. Nate, Tricia and Gwenyth were all released and doing well…Until Tricia was diagnosed with lung cancer. They thought they got it early enough. She did chemo and found out yesterday that it did not help, and they think that it may have spead to her lymph nodes.

WHY? Why have this poor family go through all that they have. A husband having to face losing both his wife and daughter? Why have Tricia face losing her life to CF, giving her the gift of a beautiful daughter and a new set of lungs, only to have them turn on her like this?

This story and many others really make me question what so many believe in…what so many put thier faith in. What kind of god that is so great and wonderful, put a family through so much pain and heartache?