I won’t hear the Doc say “try harder”

cause damn it I am trying!

In two hours I will be sitting in the dr’s office rattling off all of the things that I am concerned about.

fatigue – check

depression- check

moodiness- check

inappropriate weight gain/difficulty losing ; check-check

itching – check

drinking 128 oz of water and only having to take a potty break once! – CHECK

More than likely they will tell me…”try harder. increase your exercise. come back in 6 weeks and yeah, bring us another copay!”

I am already feeling frustrated thinking about the outcome and I haven’t even left yet! I don’t want them to find something wrong, but at the same time…serisouly…I am looking at a list of 19  yes, 19 different symptoms that I HAVE…that I HAVE HAD for about the last year….all pointing to a thryoid issue.

NO, I am not blaming my “huskiness” on a disease…but if the shoe fits…do I have ALL the symptoms nope…thank god…but I am going to ask her about them…she may look at me, shake her head and think “another self-diagnosing-freak” but isn’t that why god gave us computers?

I think of “Y” from joyunexpected.com she had felt for a long time that there had to be something more to her weight gain than what they were telling her at the dr’s…she was right…after research and insisting on tests, they found her illness…she battles with it daily, and it seems she has come to terms with her weight, because it is out of her control…she is now trying to lose weight and is making it more of a personal challenge, rather than a necesiity to live a happy life.

You go Y!