Nobody would be alone

Ok, it has been awhile. I haven’t updated on our trip to the Dells…full of drama, tears and laughter…and I will, along with some photos…but today lets talk about the holiday season and how I am feeling bah-hum-buggish…kinda.

Does anyone know what today is? Didn’t think so, because you all have more important things to worry about that knowing that today is 18th week that have not heard from Eric. We have however heard from two credit card companies denying his application, and received notices from bank in which they scold him for overdrawing his account over and over…and even a letter from Bank stating that they have been trying to contact him regarding his negative balance but can’t reach him…still hasn’t changed his address obviously…we have to laugh at times…like, if they DID approve him…uhm…they would mail the credit card to our house…how does he plan on calling and asking for it?

Since we already celebrated the holiday with my sister, brother in law, and the sweetest lil’one ever, we won’t be seeing them again until after the first of the year…so that is going to kinda be strange…did I mention they found out “IT’S A BOY!!”

Due to circumstances listed above and the complications that surround that, we will not be traveling to Ohio this year to be with Mike’s family…which actually we weren’t sure we would do again this year even if things weren’t how they are.

I look at friends and see all the happenings they have going on for the holidays…families getting together etc…and I am saddened that it is going to be only the two of us on Christmas Eve and we only have Mikey and Joey for Christmas Day this year based upon holiday schedules…

When walking into our house I feel the christmas cheer…many new decorations up…it really is cozy…but shortly after that I feel sad…sad that we are with one less child this year, sad that there are people out there who have no family and that I feel sorry for myself at times like this.

Our plan was to “adopt a family” this holiday season, but that came and went and so we hope to do so again next year…We have a few elderly in our area that I think are alone for the most part this season, I think I will take the boys out and they can help drop off some holiday goodies…let them know that we are thinking about them…because afterall isn’t that all what we really want…is just to feel special to someone?